In between celebrations, Christmas is a good time for reflection….considering the past year, appreciating family and friends, and planning for the next year. For me, it seems like this is especially important this year. Many, many things have changed in my life over the last year. Starting college is the most obvious, but it has been a year of huge growth for me in other ways. All of these changes leave me with a lot to sort out. A few things stand out from all of this mental/emotional sorting.
1. I am very, very blessed. There are things about my life I don’t like, but in the big scheme, I have a very good life. I’m in school, doing well, paying for it from my jobs, fully supported by my family. My friends are amazing, always there for me. I have a spectacular boyfriend who came out of the blue and brings unbelievable amounts of joy to my life. I am in possibly the best period of my life right now, with nothing to really complain about. It’s important for me to remember that in the midst of the “growing pains” all of these changes bring.
2. I like being challenged. Christmas break is great, and I definitely needed the rest, but I find myself antsy, unsure of what to do. It’s hard to fathom, this freedom, after having to do homework practically every night for the last few months. I’m working 40 hours a week, but still feel slightly lost in the evenings.
3. I like learning. I never particularly liked school until college. Tying right in with the challenge point, I like being challenged to learn something. I could turn into a professional student very easily. I have to remember that when I’m feeling lazy and don’t want to get out of bed or off, say, Pinterest. I know that learning is good for me, I just have to get off the couch and do it.
4. I still have a lot of uncertainty. Making decisions about issues in my life has only opened more questions about other issues. There are still many issues that I just haven’t decided. This sometimes frustrates me…in a way it makes me feel like an immature or weaker person. Which is probably an unwarranted feeling, but there regardless.
5. I was well-prepared for life. My parents and youth pastor repeated these mantras constantly about life. Do this, don’t do this, etc. Now that I’m on my own, I find myself realizing how true all of these teachings are. In a way, it makes me feel like such a typical child. At the same time, I am extremely grateful for such good raising.
Looking past all the annoyances and uncertainties, I am so happy with my life. I don’t take the time to acknowledge that often enough. This Christmas, think about what is wonderful about your life. Yes, your relatives may drive you insane. You may have had any number of disasters. You may have even had recent tragedies in your life. In that case, my heart goes out to you. But in general, I encourage you to be happy with life. It is magical and good. 🙂